Hey dear readers,
Since a few weeks, I find it hard to believe that the guy that I’m in love with loves me back. For a long time, I thought that he really liked me. He had those kinds of signs, such as making eye contact, touching my shoulder sometimes. We had two amazing days, both in a different amusement park. I really enjoyed it, and I miss those days. I tried to meet up with him again, but he went on a vacation and he said that there was no time left in the holiday.
So I tried it again, to ask him to go to an amusement park again for Halloween. He said that he has lots of work to do for school, so he said that he wasn’t sure if he could go with me. So that was a new no. And last week, I asked him to join me to a comedy show in the theatre. He has to stay home to look after his dog. So again, he says no.
I know that he isn’t lying; I know that he speaks the truth. I must trust him. But it just hurts to hear no all the time, especially since he doesn’t text me that much as that I text him. He helped me with a video, so that’s very sweet of him. He wanted to make sure that it’s perfect, so he’s still working on it. It’s for an assignment at my school, so I’m very happy that he helps me with that.
Many friends tell me that he surely likes me, because I told them all the small details that he does. I do have the feeling that he likes me, but it just makes me quite sad to hear no all the time. I try so hard to meet up again, but he’s so busy. I just wish that I could see him again. I just miss him. I miss our conversations while we look at each other, and that I sometimes touch his shoulder when he touches mine. I just wish that he would try to make some time for me. It’s just all that I wish for.
I just think of all the happy moments that we’ve shared in those long days at the amusement parks, all the subjects that we’ve talked about. He gave me a hug, while I always was the one who gave it first. But that day, the last time that I saw him, he wanted to give me a hug. That must mean something, right? If he doesn’t like me, then he wouldn’t even do that. That’s what I keep telling myself. He promised me that we would talk through text, but I’m still the one who starts the conversations first. Plus, we don’t talk that much, and not for long either. I know that he’s busy with school, so am I, but I just want to have a conversation with him. I want to see him. That’s too hard to ask? Am I asking too much?
Have you experienced something like this before? Do you have advice for me?
Lots of love, ‘Daphne’